Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Supersized Me

I have been blessed with low self-esteem. Yes, I am not afraid to admit it. It is one of my new years resolutions (getting rid off it that is), together with weight loss, and one of the steps are admitting the problem. Check.
I sometimes get very sad and angry with my self, because of the way I look and how it makes me feel. The guy from upstairs clearly didn’t have anything special planned for me, so I have to work double as hard achieving what I want. Maybe he thought that I’d be happy with hair loss and thin hair, skin problems, a very sun sensitive pale skin, a square face (think of Sponge Bob Square Pants and you get the point), very thick ankles, broad feet, very chubby legs, blubbery arms, the tiniest bladder, and not too many brain cells. Well I don’t think it's that much fun. That is why my new years resolution was to try and improve my self –esteem. Sure I can lose some weight and try to look better, but the bottom line is that if you can’t work with what you’ve got, you have nothing.
I realized this some nights ago when I was at my friend M's place. She is tall, blonde, smart, and wasn’t exactly Oliver Twist growing up. My self-esteem nearly always sinks when I’m with people I belive are completely out of my league. But when we watched some pictures of some people, I realized that even when I hate my self as much as I do, things could be a lot worse. And I mean A LOT! If people who really aren’t that lucky, still are happy and pleased with themselves, can work with what they got, then so should I! I’d like to stop putting my self down, and now I found a trick that kinda helps. Comparing myself to someone less fortunate isn’t a permanent solution, but it helps me put things into perspective. Not because I put other people down, but because it is inspiring. I hope that one day I'd be more of a positive person!
Any tips on how to get rid off bad self-esteem, please speak up.


  1. work what you've got! highlight the positive instead of the negative... and hang out with your sweet (and non perfect) friends ;)

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  3. I hear cutting yourself really helps numbing the pain. Big hit among the angsty.